Lately, I’ve been having the most realistic dreams. In these dreams, I find a person that I haven’t talked to in a long time, and I sit down and talk with them. I’m completely honest with them. I tell them things I could never imagine telling them in real life, or things that I had wanted to tell them but never got a chance to say. And when I wake up, I’m disappointed that the conversation never actually took place in real life.
Maybe the dream is telling me to find these people in real life and have honest conversations with them. But in some ways, that would be really strange. First of all, the best way to find people these days is Facebook, and I don’t have Facebook. Second of all, it would look weird if a person you hadn’t spoken to in years (a person you might even have completely forgotten about) suddenly showed up and wanted to have a conversation; not just a superficial, how’s-your-life-going-these-days kind of conversation, but a conversation with substance. I know I’d be a bit freaked out by it myself.
The sad part is, if I actually did get a chance in real life to talk to these people, I doubt I could say what was on my mind. My dream-self is a lot more outgoing and talkative than my real-life self. My real-life self would say something like, “How are you doing?” wait for the usual response, “Fine, and you?” and smile, nod, and walk on. But my dream-self would say, “So, remember that time in 2005 when we were talking about such-and-such and I said this, but what I really wanted to say was that?”
Odd topic, I know… but it was something that was on my mind.